dali48 and teaching and writing diary & books and cycling & photographing in Erkrath etc.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
26.05.2000
Interpretation by dali48
However, if you do not find yourself or lose yourself, your dialogue with life and with everything that is a partner will cease, and all that will remain is the cup filled with the misery of this world. So if you find yourself, you will experience opening and spaciousness; if you lose yourself, your feeling for life will shrink to a cup (suffering) that will become a prison ... (see help e.g. from Emotions Anonymous etc. - d.48) ... When life and love are distorted, then we are overcome by pain, fear and anger ... It is agonizing to face the ruins of our lives, to realize that we ourselves have sown the disastrous seeds that lead to our destruction, and also to see the self-destructive seeds of others sprouting that affect our lives ... Dying is easy, staying alive is difficult! ... Life is love, not anger and selfishness and controlling and suppressing! ... When I feel uncomfortable, I withdraw and observe. But others notice when I withdraw and they suffer ... (W.H. Lechler)
Monday, March 10, 2008
28.05.2000 - Part 2
Interpretation by dali48
Before I learned how to scream, I didn't realize that you can't talk about feelings, that you have to feel them! Most of us hate ourselves. We can't forgive ourselves for our inadequacies. If we feel unprepared, it means we are failures, and we can't stand failures. We compare ourselves with others. In our eyes, the others are the successful ones, and that is the source of our self-hatred. As long as we cannot admit to ourselves that we are failures, that we make mistakes, we will hate ourselves. We deny life and ourselves and live in anticipation of pain, fear and anger. So we are forced to flee, retreat or fight, or we keep ourselves ready to fight like rattlesnakes. The price for our behavior is deprivation and misery; a state of discomfort. Alcohol, drugs and other means of escape serve to make us forget our inadequacy. Peace comes when we reconcile ourselves with our very nature! ... My old basic belief tells me that I cannot bear the pain, so I must eradicate it. Killing the pain by suicide would of course mean the end of everything, and I do not want that. To eliminate the pain for a while, all I have to do is change my situation. The secret lies in changing our attitude, and the ability to change is within each of us ... When we surrender, our inflated ego is reduced to its true size and we can then accept all the gifts that are already waiting for us. With our inflated ego we cannot receive them; that remains a huge obstacle ... In America, we have heard a lot about Lourdes. Many miracles happen there, but it is not the place that causes them, but the faith of the people. It is important to create an atmosphere of trust in which everyone can let go and entrust themselves to "God". This is an unconditional surrender. Wherever you create such an atmosphere, miracles will happen. We have the power to create this atmosphere in our own families if we satisfy our lack by changing our attitudes and becoming one with ourselves, our family members, our environment. Bonding never ends, surrender knows no limits ... Our families, our schools, etc. want to deny us our right to exist because we are then easier to treat ... I am afraid to abandon the old behavior pattern because it offered a certain security. Changes, even for the better, always have traumatic effects! ... Being instead of doing - that is the solution! Only action that comes from our being makes sense. The angrier people are, the more fanatically they throw themselves into activities. How can we learn to deal with the business of angry people? Living in the moment is the answer (not in the past or future - d.48)! In this moment there is neither pain nor fear nor anger (anger). In this moment we live! ... In fact, my upbringing, my education through school and church, everything I have learned - wrongly learned - contribute to hindering me from fulfilling my needs ... We all want to HAVE something (greed). So we do something instead of BEING! But Wally (Minto) is of the opinion that the universe has a sequence of stages: from BEING to DOING and only then to HAVING! ... Attachment is a biological necessity ... Dan (Casriel) describes his screaming technique (see also A. Janov etc – d.48) as a process of personality discovery. He explains that we switch off our conscious content and scream out our pain, our fear, our anger. Then we can also have positive experiences on the mats ... An unspoken need cannot be fulfilled, that makes sense, so I live a life full of loneliness and despair ... (J.C. Lair / W.H. Lechler)
Keine Kommentare:
Kommentar veröffentlichen