Samstag, 6. Dezember 2014

12.07.2018 - The Snow Dance Part 96 by Golden Snow


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"Write your life - Or they'll wait till you're dead to write the lie"...  (@spectraspeaks)

Part 96... by Golden Snow

I rose and excused myself and went to my bedroom. In the quiet darkness I sat and meditated. I felt the softness that came when I released myself from the world around me. I felt the salt air on my face and the warm sun on my trembling body. I relaxed and just felt the calmness that came. I never limited my time during meditation, but I heard a door close and knew that the Father was going to bed.

When the world around becomes hard to cope with I want to run, to leave and hide rather than make a decision. I knew that an answer had to be made. As I lay down and pulled my fluffy blanket around me I felt safe knowing that Wayne was sleeping just down the hall.

I awoke to the smell of toast. I was a little hungry and it smelled good. I love the smell of toast and it made me feel relaxed. I dressed and washed and went into the living room and could see Wayne standing by the stove. He turned with a smile and said: "Hi, breakfast is almost ready, how did you sleep?" He sounded relaxed. I told him I slept sound. It was the first night's sleep since you were here. He stopped what he was doing and came into the living room. "Listen to what you just said, you need me here, and I want to be with you, your terms." I told him I needed more time.

We ate breakfast and sat back just talking about what we might do with the week end. I remember of that week end not because it was filled with all happiness but I felt that someone cared for the first time in my life. I felt loved in a different and soft way. He never tried to hold me or kiss me. I really appreciated that. I liked Wayne but I did not love him at least not in a wild and abundant way. I just felt good with him. Others do not know what is best for us, but we should listen to what they have to say and study it out in our minds...

Golden Snow "Realization of past mistakes are somewhat hard to deal with ... but I know they cannot help by dwelling upon ... thank you so much dali48 , you have helped me to gain so much respect for decisions , your Blogspots , sites etc. are a life learning tool ~~~ so kind to share parts of your diaries"


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